Chuchi's Blog

Okay So Today Is July 30. Apparently I'm A Disgrace To My Family My Cousin Got A 31 year old Bitch Pregnant and I Kissed Kevin today. Kevin.. I Guess I Thought i Liked Him But I Don't Know. i Kissed Him And Felt Nothing At All. Alright He Has Soft Lips But I Don't Know Now. I Feel Awkward But That Won't Make It Seem As If I'm A Fronner Because Im Not. Well Whatever Thanks Blog And Thanks Gil You're Like The Thing I Need And Gil is Like The Most Trustworthy Person I've Really Ever Met. Today Kinda Sucked I Guess. i Had Fun in 171 With My Sexy Milkaa Lols. Though We Went To 188 To Get Roselyn And We Stayed For About 2 Hours Waiting On Her And NAthalie And WHile We Went Out Milkaa HAd To Leave Which Really Sucked But What Ever. Now Im A Disgrace To My Family. I Talk To Much Shit ABout My FAther,I Don't Care ABout My Family,Im Never Around Them Damit I Live With Them. I Just Wanna Go To Collage Already And Move In With Friends. Since I Was Small My Utopia Was A House With Pool Jacuzzi Everyone Of My Friends With Their Own Room And Partys All The Time. I Wanted To Have The Dream Life A Photographer That Gets Paid Well, Maybe And Actress Anything. I Guess It COuld BE Like Thats If I Put Mind To It ( So Corny But True). I Don't Know What Else I Can Do With My Fmaily I Don't Want To Be ANyone Else Anymore I Wanna Be MySelf. But I Don't Know When That will Be Maybe When I Dead Or Out Of This Place. I Wanna Just BE Grown Up, Work Do My Own Things Clubbing This I Can'r Do. I've Been Thinking About Getting a Tattoo Just To Hurt Them. I Just Wonder IF ANythign Im Doing Will Be BRand New To Them Im So Diffrent From What They Want Mee To Be. I Guess They Where Born Being hit Because Im Being Raised Liek Taht By My Mother. i Guess When i act Myself Its aPunishment To Them Well Thats What I Feel. i don't Want To Hurt Them BUt Me Not Being ME Is Hurting Me And It COuld Hurt My Friends. I Have So Many Secrets I Guess. Though My Family iS Main! I Hate HavingTo Be A Disgrace. I Wnat Them too LOve Me For What i Am Not What They Want Me To Be.I Am Addicted To Peircings And Tattoos I Want Alot Of Both Though Thats NOt Them But It Is Me. I Listen To ROck Wow To Jamilka And Roselin Im SomeONe Else When Im Just Trying To Be Myself. I Know They DOn't Liek That But I DO And Arent They Supposed To SUpport Me? WhatEver They're My Freind And I Love Them Too Much. I Don't Ever Think In Life Their Would BE ANother Rosselin,Jamilka Or Gil. High School Will Seperate Us And That A Fear Of Mine. RoseliN Is FUn Ass Hell And i KNow HEr For 3 Years. Jamilka IS Funny And ALways MAkes ME SMile And i Know Her For 2 Years. But Supriing The Leats Perosn I Ever Thought I WOuld GEt ALong WIth Is The PErson i Most Trust Gil. I Know Him For 1 Years Almost 2 And HEs The Most Trustworthing Person. I Dont Want To Meet New People I LOve THes e3 Too Much To Even Try To FInd A New ONe. Ilu Guys SO Much Ya Can't EVen Understand I Love You As If i KNown You Guys Since The Day I Was Born. Thanks Roselyn,Jamilks And Best Gil Beacuse I Can Trust You WIth My Life :)