wow.

life is as difficult as school -__-. i hate life right now. im really feeliqn some guys. alriqhtt correction 2. though i cant help but think its just too much. i wanna run awya and find a safe place to hide cus its the only way i knwo i'll be safe. Virgin yes, happy no, drink yes, smoke somtimes. Life is too hard to not try new things. i wanna cry so much because everyday i fall more and more for these guys. i hate how idk which is better, funnier, nice expression but that i can rely on. i like these guys so much it hurts. friends first love second. but theyre my bestfriends tht just to difficult. knwoing that i like them bouth makes it just even harder. i swear life just doesnt want me to be happy. first i got my parent telliqn em i crazy because i belie in spirits. im gettinq more and more bipolar everyday. they say the fear i ahve in my heart is gettinq so worse to a point i have to be in a mental house. isnt that great. im afraid of alot of stupid stuff but the scariest is loosing my family and friends because their the ones that matter the most to me.